the one dream that will not come true!

she keeps herself busy...

and she wonders that things should have been easier...easier not to think about herself.
but she still does, she goes back to the same point where she sees the face that she can't forget.
she has everything, but when she focuses on a new thing, everything else loses its importance and she's hooked on it...she's addicted to it, and she MUST have it!

she's scared and wonders what if she can't have it...was there anything in her life before that she didn't have? she thinks to herself...mmmm...yeah, however, not that important that she could rememeber!
she doesn't wanna lose!
Is there anyone in this world that doesn't wanna be with her? mmmm...hard to imagine! but yeah still no response...and she's not patient!
she's scared...
and heartbroken...heartbroken of the promise that she made to herself, the dream that she dreamed on a hot sunny afternoon in her childhood bed...
heartbroken of believing stupid fairy tales that are not real.
the dream that just won't come true...
she's tired,
of going on...
God you always listened to her...you gave her whatever she wanted, but not this!?!
why?
why?
why?
why?
she's ready...
she's ready for that feeling...
the moment that she's calm and safe...
the moment that just won't come true!