A life

When I don't know what tomorrow brings me,
When I know I am the only one deciding for me,
when I know in the last 3 years, it was me who made every single decision by myself,
When I remember my tears,
and my laughs,

I know that I was alone.
I was alone with a shadow beside me,
a shadow who did nothing with his hands,
and saw nothing when he had eyes for it,
a shadow that I gave birth to by believing in it,
a shadow that I can kill whenever I want to,

In fact, should I keep it alive when he asks me "what do you want to do!?"